Marriage before you live = NO

Marriage ! I always believed in marriage . I have watched my parents and my whole family they all have amazing marriages and i want that for myself one day . The thing is I don't know how i feel about marriage for women in their early /mid 20's . I just don't feel at this stage in your life that you have lived enough been through enough to be ready for marriage. I'm not saying this for all but for most . The 20's is the time for women to live and experience things . Get that first apartment or home , go on vacation with your friends ,basically do whatever you want to do without restriction. Get that independent on your own find out who you are be all about you sometimes .Reality TV has alot to blame with this new craze of younger women wanting to get married which is so funny to me because its not even the younger stars getting married . All theses women look at Kim & khloe kardashian and think i want that wedding & the fairytale .I have to be honest I once wanted this fairy tale but what the reality is it isnt the best for everyone and most . I thought yeah i can fall in love and get married in a month . But the reality of it all is these women lived life already experienced things on their own and i doubt if they hadn't they wouldn't have gotten married.  My bestie has been coming obsessed with marriage & its so annoying . She hasn't been with her boyfriend that long on and off for two years . I don't know what she is thinking but two years isn't that serious outside of high school it is the serious too us but two others maybe not  . Some people are engaged for two year. I think her getting married would be the worst idea. Also in her relationship there are some signs that should show her its all wrong but she chooses to ignore. she thinks her two years with him is serious & it is a major step but u have to think  he has been with his ex for 5 . I'm just gonna be perfectly honest i don't feel like he is into her as much as she is into him but then again I'm on the outside looking in.I don't think she should dump him but she needs to enjoy dating him but also live her life  .Any women who has never had her own life should not get married . i know i wouldn't at least go from my parents house to a man house .  I want to know how to be on my own first do my own thing. Being an independent woman is very important to me maybe because I grow up in a family of women who were independent lived before marriage . Marriage isn't just a cake walk . You give so much up with marriage and usually the women gives up way more than the man  . Marriage before you lived should be a big no . Live your life first ladies before you decided to share it with someone else .

Need of new love

I'm in a tough situation . I have two men in my life . Two men that i care a lot about each . But at the same time its not really working out with either . I know it would be alot better if i got rid of both .However I have no idea how i want to do that .I want to go into the new year fresh looking for new love not holding and hoping for old love that didn't work last year . So why would it work this year . I have to figure out what to do .How do you let go when your realize love isn't always enough ?

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Hello 2012

So first & foremost I would like to say Happy New Year everyone . This last year 2011 had a lot of ups and downs but I'm happy I made it through and I'm so excited for what this new year is going to bring . I haven't updated for a while so I guess I should give a quick catch up. Well its my last semester of bcc thank god . I have a new job at office max . Its not my all time fav but its money and it could be worst . I work with some cool ppl so i don't mind. Babycakes is still in the picture saying he is wanting to change , cupid is also . Things have been somewhat rocking with him but in this new year we are determined to start a new . Honestly I'm hoping to done with both soon but I have to figure it out soon. So we might as well just count them out .

But now time for the new year  I'm so excited to start this new year with new adventures .I should be transferring to a new school and new adventure. I'm hoping its a school in new york but I feel like I'm slacking when it comes to applying . I need to get into it.  I also am looking forward to possibly getting a better job . I just wanna fill some paper work & get paid $10 to do it, or better yet have a fashion job.  This year is also going to be about being a better me . I wanna lose weight look fab. I want nothing but positive love and light in my life . So far its starting off good but its only been two days .Cant wait to see what this new year brings and I promise to blog more .

Brickhouse Couture

So there is this new fashion line that I might possibly be designing for. This seems and I hope it becomes a great for me to grow as a designer . I never have done anything like this before but its something I most def wants to do and exprience . The line is fresh and budding not  est . as such as  a gucci or prada but even those top names started from the ground up. All I think it needs is a good team and more public expsure and of course my genius lol . I am really excited to start this new venture. I know with hard work it will be great . I'm goin g to keep you guys posted and if you're always feel free to contact me .
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Eve - Love is Blind

Take Better !

Wow I haven't written in soo long . Its been like months and months . There has been so much going on . Well the semester is finally over and I think I passed pattern drafting with flying colors hopefully . I wasn't playing around this time .As far as my other classes . I think I did ok i guess Ill see when I see.

Omg things with babycakes have been so bad lately . These last 4 months have just been the worst ever . Our relationship is so bad indescribable .  All the things I was afraid of happening with us has happen . Everything when I say everything I mean everything . Nothing is good , I cant think of anything good to say about our relationship . I just feel so stupid for being in it period. He hurts me so much just on a daily basic . I wanna let go but he doesn't want me to . its like he doesn't want me but he doesn't want me to have anyone else . its just so selfish and evil . Its so sad because i feel like I'm neglecting everyone for him like including myself . Most times I feel like i love him more than myself. It honestly shouldn't be that way .  I shouldn't have to feel to vulnerable & sad all the time .  I finally let him go but it didn't last long now i think I'm back to square one again ugh . It was sad week and a half but at least it was peaceful . Now i have to deal with the bullshit again. I deserve so much better . I keep saying to him and even myself I don't deserve this . I don't need this . But i gotta be about it haha . I think I need time to myself without any man even though i have this loser guy I hardly like taking up some of my time . I have to try my hardest to be done with Babycakes . Its just so hard when I try I miss him so much . Then I do some crazy thing acting out to get his attention.I need to get it together .